This morning I'm feeling vulnerable.  Writing this blog for me is like standing naked on a street corner.  Now if this were 20 years ago, that may not have been as terrifying experience as it would be today. Nonetheless, not a comfortable thing at any age.  I decided to write about this not as an expert, but as a Mother.  I speak from the heart, not from a formal education in psychology or as a therapist.  My punctuation will probably not be right.  I may forget to spell check.  I am not looking for sympathy or validation. I don't profess to know everything about addiction or anything else.  My goal in writing about this is to first, attempt to heal myself and secondly hope that I might help or comfort others. I take comfort in the fact that most likely not many people will read this.  Probably mostly my family:)  But, if just one person is lifted or helped by this blog it will be worth it to me.  Thanks to those who have commented and messaged me.  Your comments give me courage to keep writing.